Moments Tuesday, Mar 1 2011 

Life is filled with moments….

the moment you are conceived….

the moment you are born….

the moment you first smile….

the moment you say your first word….

the moment you begin to crawl….

the moment you take your very first step….

the moment you hug your mom and dad….

the moment you tie your own shoestrings….

the moment you write your own name….

the moment you meet your first friend….

the moment when you begin your first day of school…

the moment you are saved…

the moment you reach “the change”….

the moment you have your first crush….

the moment you first hold someone’s hand….

the moment you have your first kiss….

the moment you have your first dance….

the moment you go to prom….

the moment you graduate….

the moment you watch your best friend move away…

the moment you decide what college to attend…

the moment you say “I do”…

the moment you become a parent….

the moment you hug your baby for the first time…

the moment you see your child’s first smile….

the moment you hear their first word….

the moment you watch them take their first step…

the moment you show your child how to tie their own shoestrings…

the moment your child writes their own name…

the moment you take your baby to their first birthday party….

the moment when you take your child to their first day of school…

the moment you witness your child’s salvation…

the moment when you have “the talk”…

the moment you hear your child speak of their first crush…

the moment you see them hold someone’s hand….

the moment you hear they shared their first kiss…

the moment you help them find the perfect prom dress…

the moment you see your young adult in their cap and gown….

the moment you comfort them when their friends move away…

the moment when they read you their college acceptance letter…

the moment you give them away to their love…

the moment you see them holding their baby for the first time…

the moment you still wrap them in your arms….just as your parents did….

Moments may be cherished…

Moments may be forgotten…

Moments may last forever…

Moments may last only an instant…

Moments of regret….

Moments of satisfaction…

Moments of what could have been…

Moments of accomplishment…

Moments of risk…

Moments of certainty…

Moments of beginnings….

Moments of endings….

Moments of faith…

Moments of doubt…

Moments of truth…

Moments of deception…

Moments of love….

Moments of heartache….

Moments of life….

Moments of death….

Moments….constant moments….of God’s unconditional….agape love….

Life is filled with many chances, choices, and changes….

Yet in the end…life consists of one simple thing…

MOMENTS



 

~Bek~

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“To get to the rainbow, you have to get through the rain.” Monday, Jan 10 2011 

Each day, I usually post one facebook status.  It always pertains to something that is occurring in my life…my thoughts…my feelings…or what I believe could “hit home” with someone else.  I do not anticipate my statuses to be read by many, nor do I expect them to be this life-changing message.  Most are not my own, but all correlate with me and my life.

Earlier this week, I posted a quote that I read somewhere.  It said:  “To get to the rainbow, you have to get through the rain.”

I do not know the dictator of this quote.  I do not know the mindset, nor the situation that this person may have been in, when this statement was quoted.  What I do know is what went through my mind, when I read it.

2010, for me, was a life-changing year.  The life I had been living for almost six years, was no longer existent.  Everything that I had known….Everything that I had become….Everything that I tried to make the best of through the struggles, fake smiles, and the little hope that was left in that life.  Thoughts of what ifs and regrets.  Worried that I would never make it on my own.  Worried that I would never find myself again, in a whole new world….a new life that was about to begin for me.  The stress of the change overwhelmed my mind and my body.  Struggling with major change in my home and life…..struggling with a tough semester of college….struggling with feelings of uncertainty….and struggling with not knowing how to find ME!!

I am 25 years old and I have been a legal adult for quite some time now.  I had made decisions and choices that were, what I thought at that time, hard.  But it wasn’t until I was faced with the “disassembling” of my life that I truly understood how hard adulthood, and the seriousness of the choices I would be forced to make, can be.  I had tried everything I could to KNOW the answers BEFORE making these decisions.  I did not want to be faced with uncertainty.  I wanted to know what my outcome would be.  I was wrong!!

Our lives are not meant to be lived on OUR terms.  They are meant to be lived on GOD’s terms!!  It was a life that I had chosen to live, but was now a life that I was completely unfamiliar with. My life had become just something that I woke up every morning to, knowing the routine I had to complete just to get through the each day.  I will never know why I began a journey just to watch it end.  Only MY GOD does.  He has a plan and a purpose in every person’s life.  Though we may never understand, we have to hold on to the knowledge that GOD is in control.  We just have to completely SURRENDER ourselves to HIM.  Once I realized that, I fell on my knees and cried out to Him.  I prayed that He would clear my mind from all the fear, all the uncertainty, all the what ifs that would be confronting me in this new chapter of my life.  I prayed for strength and determination.  I prayed that I would, again, find me….not just the me that I once was….but the me that wants more of HIM.  In that moment of tears, of prayers, of renewing my relationship with my Heavenly Father….I began to grow.

His Word says that He will never put more on us than we can bear.  I held on, and am still holding on to that Truth!!  I cannot see the destination that He has for me, but  I have begun my journey, into my new life, with my hand holding on tight to Christ’s.  I no longer want to try and make my life what I want it to be.  I only want God’s will in my life.  I want to follow Him and allow Him to lead me.  His plan, His purpose, is greater than anything that I could ever make for myself.  It is in Him where I find my strength, my hope, my faith; in Him is where I will find MYSELF!!

In 2010, my change…my new life…my journey began.  I have no regrets of the past.  It has helped me become who I am today.

I made it through the rain…..

At the end of 2010, I had the privilege of spending time with three of the most amazing women I know.  Each of these women, in one way or another, have suffered through pain, fear, acceptance, and heartache.  After the small amount of time I was able to share with them, listening to their stories, becoming immersed in their emotions, and witnessing their sweet spirits, filled with the presence of GOD…..I realized that through their pain, they gained strength; through their fear, they gained courage; through their struggle with acceptance, they held on to faith in what they could not see, and became true to themselves; and through their heartache, they truly learned to LOVE.

Their examples….their faith….their trust in GOD…..their lives……THEIR rainbows….    Those things and more, inspired and motivated my desire to be true to ME and follow after God….. and HIS plan for my life……

I closed a chapter of my life in 2010.  My new chapter…my “reconstruction” has begun in 2011.

…..I am chasing after my rainbow

~Bek~

 

2010’s song for my life….