Moments Tuesday, Mar 1 2011 

Life is filled with moments….

the moment you are conceived….

the moment you are born….

the moment you first smile….

the moment you say your first word….

the moment you begin to crawl….

the moment you take your very first step….

the moment you hug your mom and dad….

the moment you tie your own shoestrings….

the moment you write your own name….

the moment you meet your first friend….

the moment when you begin your first day of school…

the moment you are saved…

the moment you reach “the change”….

the moment you have your first crush….

the moment you first hold someone’s hand….

the moment you have your first kiss….

the moment you have your first dance….

the moment you go to prom….

the moment you graduate….

the moment you watch your best friend move away…

the moment you decide what college to attend…

the moment you say “I do”…

the moment you become a parent….

the moment you hug your baby for the first time…

the moment you see your child’s first smile….

the moment you hear their first word….

the moment you watch them take their first step…

the moment you show your child how to tie their own shoestrings…

the moment your child writes their own name…

the moment you take your baby to their first birthday party….

the moment when you take your child to their first day of school…

the moment you witness your child’s salvation…

the moment when you have “the talk”…

the moment you hear your child speak of their first crush…

the moment you see them hold someone’s hand….

the moment you hear they shared their first kiss…

the moment you help them find the perfect prom dress…

the moment you see your young adult in their cap and gown….

the moment you comfort them when their friends move away…

the moment when they read you their college acceptance letter…

the moment you give them away to their love…

the moment you see them holding their baby for the first time…

the moment you still wrap them in your arms….just as your parents did….

Moments may be cherished…

Moments may be forgotten…

Moments may last forever…

Moments may last only an instant…

Moments of regret….

Moments of satisfaction…

Moments of what could have been…

Moments of accomplishment…

Moments of risk…

Moments of certainty…

Moments of beginnings….

Moments of endings….

Moments of faith…

Moments of doubt…

Moments of truth…

Moments of deception…

Moments of love….

Moments of heartache….

Moments of life….

Moments of death….

Moments….constant moments….of God’s unconditional….agape love….

Life is filled with many chances, choices, and changes….

Yet in the end…life consists of one simple thing…

MOMENTS



 

~Bek~

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The Uncertainties of Life Monday, Jan 10 2011 

A friend asked if I had made any New Years resolutions…to which, of course, I replied, “No.”  I haven’t made resolutions in quite a while.  (I have never really believed in them, because you don’t just change the way you are at the stroke of midnight.)  She then asked me what was the one thing that I would choose if I had to.  It really hit me.  What I want this year is to be completely true to myself and to who I am.  I no longer want to worry about how others perceive me.  I am an honest person, but I want to be a more open person to those I love and to those that I truly care about.  I have a problem sharing things vocally at times, usually worried that I will say the wrong things, or worried that I cannot accurately express myself.  I’m tired of living with regrets because of the things I have chosen not to say and/or do.  I do not know what lies ahead of me and this change in my outlook…and my desire to have more self-confidence in this new year.  It will be a challenge…but I will achieve it.

All this triggered my thought process…about change…uncertainties…and regrets.  Who is to know what the future holds?  Who is to know where each step we take will lead us?  But what opportunities will we miss out on if we do not choose to take those steps toward our future?

Life is full  of uncertainties – doubt, hesitancy, indeterminacy, unpredictability, indefiniteness.  We ask ourselves, “what if?”….   What if things never change?  What if they do and it is the wrong decision?  What if I regret taking a chance on something?  What if I don’t take that chance, will I regret never taking it? ….  What if!?  We can ask ourselves that question all day long, but if we wait to do everything until we know for sure that things are right, or certain, then we will never do much of anything.  We have to make choices, take chances, and at times make changes, in order to survive this crazy thing called life.  Uncertainty – worry, skepticism, concern, confusion, indecision.  What if!? …  If – a supposition; an uncertainty.  Asking the question, “what if,” will either make us step back and reevaluate, or make us lose out on greater possibilities.  How will we ever know what the future holds by always stopping and asking ourselves “what if”?  Life is full of regrets…but it’s not the things you do that you regret, it’s the things that you don’t do and wish you had that you regret the most.  No choice, chance, or change in life is ever perfect.  That is what makes life – our existence – so hard at times.  Our uncertainties can either develop us or damage us.  Change can be consumed with fear…fear of heartache or regret.  We have to stop and ask ourselves, what will we lose in this change; but we must also ask ourselves, is this fear of change really worth losing the possibility of gaining something greater?  Choice – selection; chance – possibility, or favorable opportunity; change – to transform, or to pass gradually into.  We cannot predict the future.  We cannot determine what will happen next in life.  All we can do is take baby steps into the next window of opportunity.  Though there are always consequences to every decision made, live in the moment and choose what will make you happy.  Growth does not happen without change.  Change does not happen without fear, pain, or loss.  Without pain, we have no growth.  Every decision can be made without regrets as long as you are able, in the end, to look in the mirror with a smile on your face and say, “life has its uncertainties and its what if’s, but I am determined to live it, knowing that I opened the door of change for greater possibilities.”  Life is full of uncertainties – we can either let them control us, or we can overcome them…we all have a choice…

I, for one, no longer want to live in fear of change and the things that I desire.  I am holding on to faith — the belief in what I cannot see, prove, or touch.  I am choosing to run, FULL-SPEED, into the unknown.

“Sometimes those things that scare us the most are also the ones that have the potential to make us the happiest.”

From this point on…I will learn to care less about what others think of me…and focus more on who I am…the person I am becoming…and my happiness.  I will surround myself with people who know that I make mistakes and still love me anyway.  I will always strive to do my best for others, but I am not perfect.

Take me as I am….or watch me as I go.

~Bek~